Monday, October 6, 2008

Confession Time - Shannan

I have a confession. I have been hiding behind guest posts because I've not been happy with my results, or should I say, lack off results.

I think I got to confident. The first few weeks I was watching every morsel I ate, writing it down, being good and the weight was falling off. I was walking at lunch - eating right and I'd lost 10 pounds in 5 weeks. I was feeling good.

As the weight started falling off I think I became complacent. I started allowing myself a bite or two of the things I shouldn't be eating, I used "special occasions" and "events" as excuses to break free from my diet plan. I found myself too busy to talk a walk at lunch. Worst of all - I have yet to really use my Weight Watchers membership.

I have decided that today is the day I get back in the game.

I am 15 pounds away from my goal weight. I don't want to fail this time. I want to loose the weight. I want to weigh what I did before I had children. I want to be that girl again.

This weekend I had a conversation with a friend that really put me back on track. I won't name names because I know she didn't mean it the way it sounded, but here it is in a nut shell:
Friend: Picking up photo off kitchen counter "Wow. When was this picture taken?"

Me: "Back in 1999. I was in Ft. Lauderdale for Spring Break. We were getting
ready to go out to the bars"
Friend: "Wow. Look how thin you were.
I can't believe it."
Me: "I know. It's been 10 years...."
Friend: "I mean,
look at your arms. You were thin."

Truth is, while I know she didn't mean it the way I heard it, it hurt my feelings. Had I changed that much? Other than aging (gracefully) do I look that different?? I don't have the photo electronically but I will try and get it scanned.

So, this week my goal is to get back into my eating routine, use my Weight Watchers membership and start walking at lunch again.

Current Weight: 150

Goal Weight: 135
Total Lost: 10 lbs


Debba said...

Shannan - congrats on your loss to date - so cool! And congrats on being brave enough to post your weight. I'm too chicken to even get on the scale.

Your efforts and honesty are inspiring. I know you'll reach your goal and thanks for reminding me to set one and reach it too!

Congrats - Debba

Michelle said...

You know, you've lost 10 pounds. That's huge! Heck, I'm barely holding on at 8 pounds. So don't be too upset with yourself. You lost 10 pounds and didn't gain them back. That's an accomplishment. Weight loss isn't a quick thing, remember. We all have ups and downs.
I think you're doing great!

Monika R. "RedKat" said...

Hey, don't be so hard on yourself. I've done the half-pound thing for the last few weeks, and (in case you didn't notice) didn't post on Fri. Life is crazy and hectic, and just because you had a small pause in losing, doesn't mean you're out of the game. I think it's awesome that you're so brave. :-)

Greis said...

Good luck with the last 15 pounds. I know you can do it!

Andrea @ Mommy Snacks said...

Hey, no one ever said this was easy! But, as long as you're trying and getting some result it's great!

I'm getting back on focus for eating this week. I have to get these last 10 pounds off before winter gets here and I start to hibernate with ding dongs!

Headless Mom said...

It's so easy to 'back-slide' like you've been doing. I'm soooo familiar with that. Take this weekend for example. Hubby brought home a soft, warm loaf of french bread. Usually I'm good with no's but, dang did I enjoy that bread this weekend. Oops. I have been able to walk again-finally!- after the foot problem, and that has helped. It's a series of good days, with good choices, and not going whole 'hog' when we blow it. Hang in there and don't beat yourself up over a little backsliding-just get back on the horse and ride it all the way to success!

ShannanB aka Mommy Bits said...

I love you guys. This is exactly what I needed - to hear that what I am going through is normal.

Amy in Ohio said...

I think you're doing great. This has to be done at your pace and in your stride.

You've found it and head for home!

Anonymous said...

You're doing great! When you get back from vacation, we'll have to resume our regular lunch walk. See you soon!

phyllis said...

you absolutely CAN do this!

Kate The Great said...

Funny about the pics - I hate looking at old pictures of me. They remind me of how thin/how young I was. The wild thing is, back then I hated looking at the pics because I thought they reminded me of how fat I was!

But I guess I should keep those photos around to remind me of what is attainable - if only I stick with the program (or any, for that matter).